I am writing this message and it is almost midnight. I started reading a book that I ordered not long ago, supposedly the latest and good source for anyone who is interested in theories on human rights. Halfway reading the introductory point I was perturbed by overwhelming feeling of one's impotence. I looked at the book I was reading and the unfamiliar words that kept occuring in the writing put inadvertently my English in doubt. I started wondering if I was ever suitable to make a decision to go for studies in humanities where there are more utilitarian options available for my humble intellect. Having Overcome with the envy and hubris from certain realization of impotence compared to the non-native American author, I started fantasizing about his possible elite upbringing in English speaking country (note that he's Chinese), perhaps in Singapore or Hong Kong.
Now, after half hour later I sit here and I think about absurdity of my action. Does it point to the competitive nature of scholar in training or in general positive ability of human mind to question and overcome existing dogmas? Anyways, since such content does not accurately befits the intention of this group I shall abandon it right here. Comments are as always welcome.
4 comments:
does it matter? (in my humble opinion, it is not about how u express urself, but how u contribute to)
my feeling is that do whatever u feel good about. of course, we have options, and personally I tend to choose ways I feel comfortable which is not always the best choice I make. anyway, words from someone whose english is far from fluent and donot even try to perfect it :)))
the thing is, the humanities fied in the US is still very western oriented and for that matter the universities require that you be fluent in their first language, English, as well as other European languages. It appears that along with these "popular" languages the academia tends to focus on politically/economically emerging cultures such Chinese, Japanese, Arabic, Hebwrew and Latin American.
What Solongoo said. Does it really matter?
I think when there is a lot of pressure you start questioning your ability. In psychology it is most often termed as depression but in my case I think feeling of impotence.
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